Grateful

I really am pretty much wreck about my own self confidence. I even found that I don't barely fathom about my own feelings. Sometimes I got all messed up. Then it will be just in a blink of eye I stood up and get in my positive side. You know, I was inspired to make this post when I was envy with what I shouldn't. By the time I realized that I was actually mumbling alone, this pair of eyes stuck onto a very penetrating sentence




 " Kamu ada 2 kaki 2 tangan semuanya sempurna masyaAllah "

I believe if you hold the strongest faith in Allah , you'll surely be guided to the right path . InsyaAllah if you have problems, read Quran : as what stated in surah Al-Baqarah

2:1. Alif Laam Miim.

2:2. Kitab (Al Qur'an) ini tidak ada keraguan padanya; petunjuk bagi mereka yang bertakwa

 you'll be experiencing what we called as 'petunjuk dari-Nya' insyaAllah :)

Self Motivator

Better to start with Assalamualaikum.

I don't know why but I'm here.. While in a state of suffering an incredible sore throat and fever , so sudden grabbing the laptop and broadband at 3 o'clock in the morning. By having not so comfy state with the redden in the throat, I conclude it is the cause of I couldn't experience the beauty sleep. I just wanted to keraiiiii :'(

So I decided to spend the night posting something on the blog since I had abandoned it for quite a long time teehee . Well I guess there are silent readers who won't admit *krik krik* . Not to show off , not to express my own feeling on this time post but as to reflect to my own self who is currently being possessed by my own conflicts . I started to write this on the intention to give some advice (if you see it as an advice) or else if you started to feel vomiting , you're welcome to leave from this page but then again thank you .

I am someone who believes that in this life , we certainly have choices. But often as we made an attempt to choose the wrong one , we have to consider about the effect we might face ahead of us. I don't know why I will always make an attempt by seeing through many little pieces of events occuring in my life , in the end the head will  start drawing the draft of conclusion. This life is beautiful yet Allah s.w.t is the best creator . Non of any can be compared to the only One. He thought many things and only great thinker can reflect it . I... being one of His servants always been the pain in the ass to many people's life . I gotta admit that i am such a loser . i don't have an average teenage minds which usually cares about how to be perfect in front of a boyfriend , cares about my single life which has been for about 2 years , not even complaining that my social life is just seemingly to be futile. I didn't complaint about it most of the time . In fact , I had just realized that i've lost many people whom i care too much . In reality , not many people knows about my personal life , I succeed to keep most of the things well hidden . somehow only to the people whom I trust. So yeah , been given 3 months of holidays not planning any events that can grow my excited emotion , the chastisement of reflecting my current situation is just an agony . You know, by not having someone to be chatted through all night , not having a person to confess about everything , and actually craving for all those stuffs stated , is sometimes like a punishment to my self.





What had past will remain as past , indeed.

Choices are made to be chosen.  Rendering to beautify each and every corner of  life or making it uglier . Again , confusions struck . As what i have seen , choices are everywhere . Suffering within the wrongly made choice is just the matter. Whether it is proper to be labelled as 'suffering' or it is just what you have been destined. Looking to the surrounding that many other people SURROUNDS you had chosen to the exact same way of direction , most of 'em , let alone you misleading the conception of direction , ended up being lonely . Yeah , hoping for the better choice will be chosen , thinking wisely on deciding , having thought about any other people's feeling . that's what i am begging right now. But then again , as a Muslim , we have to believe Allah has better plans. As-Sobru minal Iman. sabar itu separuh daripada iman. Allah hates people who complains about everything . 

So just get up , grateful to Allah . Looking at the previous , i complaint that i am currently going through the thick and thin all alone. Reflect again , 
Surah Qaff
"50:16. Dan sesungguhnya Kami telah menciptakan manusia dan mengetahui apa yang dibisikkan oleh hatinya, dan Kami lebih dekat kepadanya dari pada urat lehernya"

i may not up to a standard people's life , having to consider about boyfriends and stuffs and all that , but yeah deep inside i know what i want. I know what i am and what i will go through. I still have the opportunities to fill up my stomach with good foods , Allah knows what's best for me. I am not perfect yet not mature enough to give opinions . If Allah wills , things will turn out better . 

so hard to be understood aite?

Apabila anda masuk universiti , matriks , asasi, diploma, stpm .....

 Apabila anda masuk universiti , matriks , asasi, diploma, stpm, IB, A-level ..... dan ..... sebagainya .. haa sambung sikit tajuk di atas.

sebelum tu lebih mulia sebenarnya dimulakan dengan ucapan Assalamualaikum w.b.t . eheh .

bukan apa , dah lama sebenarnya takde passion nak update blog sebab macam busy sangat , ceh . nak deactivate macam sayang pula. tergerak hati nak update bila tengah browse2 meluangkan masa depan laptop terjumpa la pasal satu kes di mana pelajar2 universiti bergaduh tentang pointer . bukan nak mengungkit perkara dah lama tapi untuk peringatan adik-adik akak-akak abang-abang dan semua student (peringatan untuk diri sendiri juga) , sebagai seorang yg terpelajar , dan yang dikurniakan Allah rezeki untuk menimba ilmu-Nya dan segala apa yang ada dalam dunia ini hak milik kekal dan abadi hanya kepada Pencipta, sepatutnya things like this shouldnt happen la kan. btw, i'm one of the student of the university yang disebut2kan and saya tak berniat nak memihak kepada mana2 pihak sebab saya rasa mcm ini sangat TIDAK PATUT. untuk adik2 yang alhamdulillah dapat sambung belajar tu , you have to bear in mind , di mana2 kita ditempatkan itu adalah perancangan Allah yang Maha Berkuasa , setiap yang ditentukan itu pastinya baik untuk hamba2-Nya. . nak membanding2kan university or apa2 je lah kolej sepatutnya tak perlu . kita kena campak mana2 pun kalau tak usaha tak berjaya , dan orang yang menulis status di twitter itu pun sebenarnya sangat tidak matang maybe ada kawan2 dia dari univ tersebut yang berkecil hati dan sebagainya . mungkin dia tak berfikir panjang bila dia tekan "tweet" atau pun sedang menenangkan hatinya. lullz. perkara dah lepas kan? manusia buat silap , kita belajar daripada kesilapan.hope takde dah la benda2 macam ni terjadi . kalau involve aku yang diperkatakan dan direndahkan pun rasa nak membara je sebenarnya. yang tak bestnya bila baca comment2 di facebook atau twitter , bawah tu penuh lagi pula dengan masing2 membanggakan univ masing2 .

kalau pun ada kelebihan tak kiralah dalam apa jua aspek , we should know that as a human being that is being created by the One and only , kalau Tuhan nak tarik nikmat , dalam sekelip mata dia boleh tarik , nau'zubillah . tak perlu berbangga dengan apa yang kita ada . kalau dah grad nnt , achievement in academic percent dia tak banyak pun, ulat buku sekali mana pun kalau susah nak bawa diri , nak survive , even daripada sekolah straight A memanjang , kat U 4 rata memanjang , kalau takde kualiti , susah juga . better kita doa sama2 untuk kawan2 dan muslim sesama kita berjaya insya Allah dunia akhirat . kan lebih manis cenggitu :) setiap universiti itu ada kelebihan dan OBJEKTIF KENAPA MENGAPA ATAU BAGAIMANA gred ditentukan adalah BERSEBAB. tiada istilah univ ini lebih bagus , univ itu lebih bagus , apa kata campak jauh2 persepsi melihat ranking , cara , dan etc. usaha bersungguh2 berbakti kepada ibu bapa, keluarga , dan masyarakat dan yang paling penting agama. (cehhh, karangan ke apa ni) .

untuk adik2 yang baru nak melangkah ke alam selepas sekolah , SPM bukanlah segalanya, keputusan SPM melayakkan kita untuk terus menjejak ke alam yang baru je . bagi yang berjaya Alhamdulillah teruskan , itu rezeki jangan dipersiakan . bagi yang kurang , jangan putus asa, ada perancangan yang lebih baik. mana2 aspek yang kita pergi , insyaAllah boleh berjaya kalau pandai cari cara , dan berserah semua kepada-Nya. ingat , hidup ini bukan untuk EXAM. yang lebih kekal adalah akhirat . tapi Allah dan nabi tidak mengajar kita untuk hanya tertumpu pada suatu perkara kerana setiap perbuatan yang baik kerana Allah s.w.t adalah ibadah, macam mana untuk terus maju kalau tiada ilmu . ilmu sangat dipandang tinggi di sisi Allah s.w.t . kalau tiada kemajuan diri , mungkin lebih susah untuk kita beribadah dan berbakti di dunia . buang jauh2 persepsi pandai atau tidak, pandai bijak berjaya adalah sesuatu yang subjektif .

sebenarnya sebagai manusia , di mana bumi dipijak , di situ langit dijunjung . macam saya pelajar uia mestilah yang saya nampak kelebihan uia je memanjang dah takkan lah nak memburukkan tempat belajar sendiri kan. so berhati2 apabila bercakap , takut timbul riak.

ini je kot yang dapat dikongsikan , yang baik ambil sebagai pelajaran ya. yang keruh tu buang jauh2 . ambe ni manusia tak sempurna. cehhhh ekekekekekeke.

zozozozo

EPPDA Competition

ASSALAMUALAIKUM

Yesterday afternoon I went to school (previous school to be exact) with one of my friend , Fatin Amira to ask about our SPM official certificate ( mom had ask me several times to get the certificate whenever i go to school but forgetful what keeps mom get angry , relax ma) . Well, gazing at the surrounding of the school , no doubt i miss the exciting and the bad memories there, summed up = wonderful most of the time . But the coretan here isn't about the memories but the moment in one of the competition i took part . The moment i could feel the formality in life , a moment i felt as a star (cewah over) . Bukan apa, ni la satu satunya competition yang memang aku menyerahkan segala jiwa raga stomach dan segala intestines .

It was an E-PPDA competion (peringkat negeri) that was held somewhere in Rawang , sorry i forgot the place and the exact time. Realizing the students out there might found this entry useful as they might be entered for the same competition, i decided to post about it . About how the things in the competition might be if the format isn't yet have changed . I felt so lucky to be chosen by puan Maryati to enter this kind of competition. well at least i enjoyed , with the supercool and can-go-on team mates , with very helpful and nice teacher/advisor/spirit givers, puan Maryati who conducts us . everything seems so perfect if i elaborated now, repeat again NOW which the competition had already been in our memory about a year , but at the time we were on rushing , the work to be done were so bountiful ...nervous, anxious are the best word could describe our situation , it weren't that so perfect but finally the moment was very enjoyable to spend sometimes in life. Furthermore , I'm someone in computer addict , so more or little it really helped me to feel the fun.

okay enough with the introductions and may i begin. 

so on the moment i received a call from puan maryati asking me whether i am interested to join or not , if i am not mistaken , the gap before the competition was about 3 months so i decided to be in the list as i thought the task to be done aren't so complicated with a very long gap . in the mean time , there wasn't any much of work , but i get into contact with pn . maryati  several times , that i able to have the strength to skip SIVIK subject . SIVIK subject was our most spine-chilling subject to skip . HAHA. malas nak cerita kenapa , maaf :p in the competiton i played roll as documents and all the computer manager while my other two team mates Fatin and Shauqi both have their own roll as presenters . they are really good in presenting while i'm not so my roll as presenters wasn't many and i was blessed. haha . i couldn't smile while talking seriously , it is so difficult . :3

As the day passed by , i really had broke into pieces . the work to do were not as it seem . not as i imagined , the work seriously were covered with very intricate problems . Such as what is the best background to be put in your presentation , the best way to decorate all the thing , the information to be put in it that will be presented in 15 minutes , how to match up the power point designs with the theme , problems occured when sometimes the video you had put couldn't be played and many more. Plus , we have what it calls as manual book or something i forgot. we did not really concern about it but trust me it is the most important thing to  be completed . As the result , we succeed to complete the draft only in 2 pages instead of we have to complete the draft as many as our page in our presentation. take note* , do not ever take granted about the manual book / draft book.

My advice to the students that might be entered the competition , make sure not to take granted all the work as you would have some difficulties in your last time. Who ever have thought that Pn Maryati and i had to stay awake until 3 in the morning just to finish the zero complete after we suddenly be informed about the do's and the don't's , plus i have to get practice key-ing in the same thing i had to build in the power point. We did again all the things and practicing in just a night before the competition. I've lost the power point , so sad , kalau tak boleh upload ==" . All the information were burned in a CD, and the CD will be given to the manager at the competition so that they can check whenever we cheated by saving the context as images or not.

As u may know, in the competition we will be given about 2 hours to re-build our power point from a blank document (2 jam kot ntah tak ingat) . we can't save any of the information and we can't simply save all the image we had and pasting it all in the power point . Each group contestant will be given a PC , and we can't build the power point using our own laptop. Oh before that , a week or two before , we received a call from the producer calling us to go for a talk. the talk is important as you will be given the newest format and all. Nonetheless you can skip , it depends on you. But i suggest at least a representative have to go.

So on the day of the competition , we arrived late and we have to accept that our turn was the last . and here is it , IT WAS ONLY OUR TEAM who did not on any formal clothes. muehehehe. My group consists of 3 mates , we represented 1 Malaysia , matching up the theme , so Shauqi wore a Baju Melayu , Fatin wore a sari complete with tudung , while me complete cheongsam with tudung. Seeing the other group from other school wearing corporate or just formal school clothes making us all feels like a very weirdo :O but , naah , it was our speciality :p As we arrived the 're-build' activity was just about to start , and alhamdulillah we succeeded build all the thing in power point in the given time.

After that,when the time for representeting has started , we took time practising again and again and were still able to repair some of the things in the library. Oh by the way , other group will not be given permission to enter the competition room except when the turn has come. so we were waiting like hours sleepily and exhaustedly and anxiously all in one agony . and when our group being called , so we were like GET SET GO entering the room ANDDDDDDDDDD , all the CROWDwere like 'woaahh' , 'alamak habis la kita' , 'ha ni lain drpd yg lain' , seeing us all in our clothes XD and i was so happy , a bit proud :p

Setting up and bismillah , in 15 minutes we finally finished our presentation. i was proud and satisfied even though i forgot to read one part in the presentation , it was okay said pn . maryati because obviously i handled most activity running in computer . and , alhamdulillah all the video played smoothly , nothing stuck we were blessed . Many teachers from other school complimented us and we were lucky as we have Shauqi the most astonishing student in our school . Then we go makan-makan waiting for the closing chatted , cam-whoring , giggling , making new friends .

   Even though we just managed to get in 2nd place , and my thought that we could succeed in first prize had broken , couldn't continue in next stage , it was okay . i totally enjoyed with the exeperience Alhamdulillah :)  thats all not-so-many information given by me . hehe. Hoping that i can still give a view about the competition . Here are some pictures of our victory . HOHO

topic that we have to represent is about DADAH . (DRUG) the contestants will be given the drafts of what to do and what main thing should be in the list



oh btw , our senior once had succeed to go for Kebangsaan , we felt so bad because can't do better but it was our first time , pn. maryati cheered us up :) . Masa pertandingan ni dah pun tingkatan 5 nak habis sekolah dah so memang tak dapat further apa2 . okay thats all. until the next ABC . xoxoxoxoxo










Heart Warmers for All

Assalamualaikum.

today's entry is specially for this one little chemong-naughty-but-nice-cute-beloved Puteri Aleesya Damia :D


 She's now already a 2 year-old cute naughty girl, well i remembered the first week in IIUM PJ i sit next to maisarah while we were on a talk , without anyone realizing i suddenly cried incessantly. hahahaha. well, by that  time i was just about 3 to 4 days being apart from my family . mehmeh . konon lah anak manja sangat kan nak nangis2 bagai . but ,the reasons i couldn't endure the sadness well one of it was the yearning of this budak kecik for sureeeee. ihihihii. it was exactly after i caught a sight of Barney which is the same as Aleesya's . so what ? this budak kecik had snatched my heart and locked herself in one of the 4 chambers

Besides , the continuous journey of being apart from family has just begun by that time. ( ceh konon padahal hujung minggu boleh je balik ) ihiksihiks. LOL. bukannya tak pernah merasa berjauhan . seminggu pun pernah . tapi berjauhan masa tu dah set dalam kepala otak hanya untuk sementara waktu dan bukan untuk orang kata macam rutin hidup but now dah jadi rutin hidup dah atas sebab berjuang untuk menyambung pelajaran. cewahhhhh . 

haa, by the way Aleesya will be kak long in this few months before my kakak deliver her baby . :DD The baby is expected to be born on July 2013 and i'm looking forward sooo much for the moment !pray both for her baby and herself showered with blessings and good health!  
InsyaAllah ..

Till the next ABC . XOXO
btw, acu always love you Puteri Aleesya Damia :)
cewah sweet sangat la pulekkkk -.-
eh i ni lebih dari sekadar makcik yang baik dan cun kepada aleesya ni tau. 
AHAKS!